I suck at trying to be positive. I tried, really, I did. I just want to sulk and complain about how I have to have an HSG and another IUI next week. I am sick of my coworkers thinking I am off doing something fun every time I have to run to the RE. I am sick of looking at the pg bellies around me getting bigger and bigger. I want a family. Why does this have to happen to us? Didn't we make the right decisions in life? Went to college, got good jobs, saved money, bought a house...why can't good things happen for us?
Ugh, and on a final note, I hate when my coworkers spend hours chatting about their kids, taking off early half of the week b/c of piano lessons, 'childcare issues' and dentist appointments, but glare at me when I have to go to an RE appointment. They all suck. They keep telling me I just need to be patient, and it will happen. Screw you and your happy little children and shut up.
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::hugs:: It's not fair at all and you have every right to feel sad, angry and jealous of others. It sounds like your coworkers have never had to deal with IF. I'm not sure if it's possible, but perhaps you can avoid talking about pregnancy and all that with them... find yourself busy with needing make a sudden phone call or something.
Amen:-)
Lots of hugs coming your way, GL with teh HSG!
i agree completely. its so hard to stay positive when everything seems to be going wrong. hopefully there will be a big turn in your road soon!
Erin
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