One last try

AF finally came...three days late and 4 negative HPTs later. What really sucks this time, more so then the last 19 times since we have started TTC, is that this is the official last time we might have gotten pregnant on our own, naturally.

With my RE appointment coming next week, all of the treatments will begin and conception will no longer be just the two of us, it will involve a medical team at the least, and at the most thousands of dollars of fertility meds, injections, ultra sounds, scopes, etc. Its not like I didn't know months ago that this was our fate, but I was holding out the hope that it MIGHT JUST HAPPEN, crazy hey? That maybe we would become parents like everyone else, but just getting it on. How crazy must I have been to actually think that.

I do have to say that therapy must be helping b/c the tears where a lot less than last month (and we were on a break last month). I guess am learning to deal with the disappointment and trying really hard to deal with seeing pregnant bellies and newborns. I hear it all comes with time. I hope our time being childless is not long enough to deal with all of this pain.