Long time, no post

I've been having a rough couple of months, feeling a bit like I'm coming out of my skin. I started to think about other than life stresses, what was different. I realized that I think all my thoughts that I usually post here might be eating me up. So, I'm back:)

We've had some really craptastic luck lately. DH=unemployed. Family drama with my sister. Elijah has Strabismus. And I most likely have Lupus. Fun, ey?

We have an appointment with the leading pediatric eye doc in our area to see what we will do about Eli's eye. It is getting pretty bad, so much so that every time our family comes to visit they make so many comments. Poor little guy. He has been so grumpy lately, I worry that he head hurts b/c his eyes are off. Any time I have issues with my eyes I get the worst headaches, and just thinking about him dealing with something like that:( So sad. There might be patching, glasses, or surgery in his future. Send all your 'no surgery' vibes our way please.

DH is still a SAHD, and I am full of resentment over it. I WANT TO STAY HOME:( I don't want to have to leave the LOs everyday and go to work. This is not how it was supposed to work out. I had to deal with all the IF treatments, a crappy pg, hospital bedrest, and now major joint pain. I should be the one who gets to stay home. But who knows if that will ever happen. I guess this is what I get for having the stable job with the good benefits. The situation is one that we are having conflict about. I don't know why so many people think having kids will help a marriage. It will not.

With all the shit that's been happening, there are two little beings that make life worth living. Elijah and Hazel. They are getting so big and I am always amazed at how their personalities are already formed. Hazel is quite the mama's girl and loves to snuggle me. Elijah is definitely more interested in his daddy and hates to be contained, he must jump and play all the time. They both love the dogs and vice-versa.

We started solids a few weeks ago, just cereal at first, but have moved to peas (H loves, E, not so much) and squash, which was the winner so far. Next week I think we will try green beans.

That is all for an update for now. I promise I will be around more. Not so much for your benefit, but for my mental health:) Okay, and partially b/c I feel like a terrible blog 'friend':)