I've been thinking a lot about not only those 6 embies we have growing, but about the 2 that did not make it this far. I never thought I would react this way, but I am really sad that they 'died'. Those 2 potential children are no more. Did anyone else have this reaction?
Our ET is tomorrow at 9:15am and I took the rest of the week off. DH even took off tomorrow and Thursday in order to wait on me while I am on a self-imposed 48 hr bed rest:) At least at the end of all of this I will know that I did everything within my power for this to work.
I heard that our RE gives us a picture of the embryos (blastocysts? is that what they are called at that point?) that they are transferring. I hope that will be the 'baby's 1st picture' entry for a future baby book. I guess we will know in just a few short weeks, or less.
BTW-I think I have decided not to POAS at all. I hope I have the willpower.
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Our journey through infertility, to pregnancy, with a few bumps along the way.
About Me
- Andrea
- Milwaukee, Wisconsin, United States
- After years of struggling with infertility we are finally parents to twins thanks to IVF#2! Learning through the difficult time of infertility, a multiples pregnancy, hospital bedrest, and a NICU stay that life is life, there is nothing you can do to control it. All you can do is try to make the best of it:)
Our Journey
- 10/05-Got married!
- 12/06-Began TTC
- 8/07-Diagnosed with Varicocele
- 10/07-Varicocelectomy
- 7/08-First RE appointment
- 9/, 10/, 12/08-IUI #1-3=BFNs
- 1/09 -IUI#4 =BFN
- 4/09 -IVF#1=BFN w/RE #2
- 6/22/09-IVF#2 =BFP!
- 1/15/10-Hazel and Elijah were born
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- Conceive This!
- Infertility Journey to Motherhood
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- Little Bluebirds Fly
- Make it Grand
- My Infertile World
- No swimmers in the tubes, no bun in the oven
- Not How I Planned
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- Someday, Someway!
- Swimming Against the Tide
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Money Spent on IF
- 2008-
- 7/23/08 -$323 RE office visit
- 7/23/08 -$727 cervical cultures
- 8/11/08 -$948 day 3 bloodwork
- 8/11/08 -$536 day 3 ultrasound
- 8/20/08 -$285 for IUI #1
- 9/5/08 -$194 Semen analysis and cryopreservation
- 9/08-9/09 -$150 semen storage fee
- 9/11/08 -$194 semen analysis
- 10/6/08 -pending $3,500 for HSG
- 10/11/08 -$285 for IUI #2
- 12/1/08 -$285 for IUI #3
- 12/27/08 -$285 for IUI #4
- 2009-
- 1/24/09-$248 RE office visit
- 1/28/09 -$412 semen analysis and bloodwork
- 1/30/09 -$542 mock-ET and bloodwork
- 2/6/09 -$3,966 for IVF & ER anesthesia
- 2/10/09 -$1,819.05 for IVF Meds
- 3/25/09 -$1,290 freezing embryos
- 4/2/09 -$293 beta testing
- 6/1/09 -$3,996 for IVF #2
Acronyms
- AF = Aunt Flow (menstruation)
- Beta =Beta blood test, tests for pregnancy hormone
- BFN = Big Fat Negative (on HPT)
- BFP = Big Fat Positive (i.e. PREGNANT!)
- DH = Dear Husband. Even when he's not being particularly dear
- ER = Egg retrieval
- ET = Embryo transfer
- FET=Frozen Embryo Cycle
- HPT = Home Pregnancy Test
- ICSI = Intro Cytoplasmic Sperm Injection
- IF = Infertility
- IL = In-laws
- IUI = Intrauterine Insemination
- IVF = In Vitro Fertilization
- LO = Little Ones (babies)
- MFI = Male Factor Infertility
- MoM = Mother of Multiples
- O = Ovulate
- OPK = Ovulation Predictor Kit (tells when you O)
- Pg = pregnant, pregnancy
- PIO = Progesterone in Oil shots
- POAS = Pee on a Stick (take HPT)
- RE = Reproductive Endocrinologist
- SA = Semen Analysis
- SIL = Sister-in-Law
- Stims = Stimulation hormone shots
- TI = Timed Intercourse
- TTC = Trying to Conceive
- TTTC = Trouble Trying to Conceive
- WTF=What the fuck? -why didn't this work
13 comments:
i haven't done IVF, but i think i would be sad too.
I hope your transfer tomorrow goes well! Sending sticky baby dust your way!
Praying for you tomorrow...rest up and let those embies snuggle in.
Hey Andrea - Sending lots of good thoughts for the transfer! I support your decision not to POAS. I think it is more than a little crazy making.....
Go little embryos, Go!
good luck with your transfer today! we got a picture of our embies too, and i can't stop looking at it. i refused to poas, too, and i've made it as tomorrow is our beta. it was pretty easy when i kept thinking about all the negatives i've gotten in the past. :)
Andrea-
I'm so excited for you! I'll be praying for you at 9:15!!! I don't know exactly what you are going thru, but I would probably feel the same way about some embies not making it. It's okay to be sad. I hope you have a good two days of DH waiting on you!!!
Oh Andrea - Best of luck!!!! You are doing what I am going to be doing in a few weeks so I look forward to reading....Im praying for you!!
Congrats on the six embies, and I'm glad to hear the ER went well. I'll be thinking of you. Also I'm sorry for your loss. I guess I never really thought about the "what could have been" side of lossing an egg/embryo.
I agree with not POAS. I know it will be harder to stay with that in about 10 days, but for me, I would question it whether it was positive or negative. I'd rather hear it from the professionals.
Sticky, sticky baby dust to you...
i was very surprised how much i "felt" for my embryos. they really are a miracle for every second they are "alive and dividing."
nice thinking, taking the rest of the week off. that last thing you need is your annoying co-workers around while your babes are trying to snuggle in. :)
sending good ju ju your way! i hope all went well with the transfer!
:) wahoo. thinking tons about you and hope the transfer is perfect!!
xoxo
Good luck, hoping those embies snuggle in tight!!
I am praying for you sweetie!!!!
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