I have been having a lot of anxiety this week. I am not sure if it is due to the difficult decisions of the week...or knowing that I have so much to do outside of IF that I can't concentrate on. I tend to ignore everything else in my life and just pretend it's not there.
I've been lying awake at night with a thousand thoughts running through my head, then I start to feel terribly guilty about all the things I've been ignoring. Then I am sleepy all day, so I have caffeine, then I feel guilty about that. It is a vicious cycle. Ugh.
On the IVF front, I am going to call to see if when I go for my physical exam and ultrasound on Friday if they can do some of the necessary bloodwork as well. I will need to take off work a lot for all of this, so why not try to get as much done in one visit as possible?
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Our journey through infertility, to pregnancy, with a few bumps along the way.
About Me
- Andrea
- Milwaukee, Wisconsin, United States
- After years of struggling with infertility we are finally parents to twins thanks to IVF#2! Learning through the difficult time of infertility, a multiples pregnancy, hospital bedrest, and a NICU stay that life is life, there is nothing you can do to control it. All you can do is try to make the best of it:)
Our Journey
- 10/05-Got married!
- 12/06-Began TTC
- 8/07-Diagnosed with Varicocele
- 10/07-Varicocelectomy
- 7/08-First RE appointment
- 9/, 10/, 12/08-IUI #1-3=BFNs
- 1/09 -IUI#4 =BFN
- 4/09 -IVF#1=BFN w/RE #2
- 6/22/09-IVF#2 =BFP!
- 1/15/10-Hazel and Elijah were born
Blog Archive
IF Success Stories
- Busted Babymaker
- Caroline-From Infertility to Baby
- Conceive This!
- Infertility Journey to Motherhood
- IVF on the Down Low
- Little Bluebirds Fly
- Make it Grand
- My Infertile World
- No swimmers in the tubes, no bun in the oven
- Not How I Planned
- Pieces of My Life
- Someday, Someway!
- Swimming Against the Tide
- There's a baby at the end of this, right?
Multiples
Infertility Blogs
Loss
Non-IF blogs I like
Money Spent on IF
- 2008-
- 7/23/08 -$323 RE office visit
- 7/23/08 -$727 cervical cultures
- 8/11/08 -$948 day 3 bloodwork
- 8/11/08 -$536 day 3 ultrasound
- 8/20/08 -$285 for IUI #1
- 9/5/08 -$194 Semen analysis and cryopreservation
- 9/08-9/09 -$150 semen storage fee
- 9/11/08 -$194 semen analysis
- 10/6/08 -pending $3,500 for HSG
- 10/11/08 -$285 for IUI #2
- 12/1/08 -$285 for IUI #3
- 12/27/08 -$285 for IUI #4
- 2009-
- 1/24/09-$248 RE office visit
- 1/28/09 -$412 semen analysis and bloodwork
- 1/30/09 -$542 mock-ET and bloodwork
- 2/6/09 -$3,966 for IVF & ER anesthesia
- 2/10/09 -$1,819.05 for IVF Meds
- 3/25/09 -$1,290 freezing embryos
- 4/2/09 -$293 beta testing
- 6/1/09 -$3,996 for IVF #2
Acronyms
- AF = Aunt Flow (menstruation)
- Beta =Beta blood test, tests for pregnancy hormone
- BFN = Big Fat Negative (on HPT)
- BFP = Big Fat Positive (i.e. PREGNANT!)
- DH = Dear Husband. Even when he's not being particularly dear
- ER = Egg retrieval
- ET = Embryo transfer
- FET=Frozen Embryo Cycle
- HPT = Home Pregnancy Test
- ICSI = Intro Cytoplasmic Sperm Injection
- IF = Infertility
- IL = In-laws
- IUI = Intrauterine Insemination
- IVF = In Vitro Fertilization
- LO = Little Ones (babies)
- MFI = Male Factor Infertility
- MoM = Mother of Multiples
- O = Ovulate
- OPK = Ovulation Predictor Kit (tells when you O)
- Pg = pregnant, pregnancy
- PIO = Progesterone in Oil shots
- POAS = Pee on a Stick (take HPT)
- RE = Reproductive Endocrinologist
- SA = Semen Analysis
- SIL = Sister-in-Law
- Stims = Stimulation hormone shots
- TI = Timed Intercourse
- TTC = Trying to Conceive
- TTTC = Trouble Trying to Conceive
- WTF=What the fuck? -why didn't this work
7 comments:
That sucks that you can't sleep! I've had nights like that...worrying and thinking about everything. Could you take Unisom or Tylenol PM to help a little? I'm getting excited for you to start IVF!
I am discovering that the lead up to IVF is an exciting but stressful time. I have been waiting so long to start,and yet I don't think I can be totally prepared for it. I think it is a matter of jumping off the deep end and giving it a go. Good luck with all of your prep!
ugghhh...the taking off time from work can be a real pain. I am lucky that I have an understanding boss. I try and schedule all my appointments ahead of time so that I can give as much notice as possible.
O Andrea - that is the story of my life!!!! I used to sleep like a rock - now I have insomnia and if I sleep, I wake up a few times.
Stress is a biotch.
Ughh... that is one sucky vicious cycle! The one thing that helped me fall asleep is if I stretched for abt 15 mins before bedtime, that kinda helped relax my muscles and calm my nerves. People also swear by meditation CDs, although I haven't tried it, it sounds relaxing too!
i am so excited for you to start!!! i hope you can do all of the background "get ready" stuff at one visit!!!
sorry you can't sleep. :(
I'm sorry about the anxiety! Anxiety stinks....
Good luck w/ all of your upcoming tests!
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