We got 13 inches of snow overnight and I have spent the day shoveling and sitting on the couch. One would normally think that a day off work is a good thing, but when I have too much time without distraction my mind starts to wander into the depression of IF:(~
I ran into my college roommate last night at a local pub. She was a bit tipsy (but I think she was there for a wake....) and we got to talking about how everyone has kids. I could tell by the tone in her voice that maybe she was having some of the difficulty we were, but was convinced when she described how one of her friends got pregnant b/c her husband winked at her:) She confessed that they have been trying for 8 months with no luck. I told her about us and we planned to get together soon to talk.
It made me even more depressed to see the sadness in her eyes when she was talking about not being able to get pregnant, and how she just really wants to be a mom:( Since all of my IF friends are via the interwebs I don't see the emotion very often, just read it. Seeing it is a lot different and much more sad:(
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Our journey through infertility, to pregnancy, with a few bumps along the way.
About Me
- Andrea
- Milwaukee, Wisconsin, United States
- After years of struggling with infertility we are finally parents to twins thanks to IVF#2! Learning through the difficult time of infertility, a multiples pregnancy, hospital bedrest, and a NICU stay that life is life, there is nothing you can do to control it. All you can do is try to make the best of it:)
Our Journey
- 10/05-Got married!
- 12/06-Began TTC
- 8/07-Diagnosed with Varicocele
- 10/07-Varicocelectomy
- 7/08-First RE appointment
- 9/, 10/, 12/08-IUI #1-3=BFNs
- 1/09 -IUI#4 =BFN
- 4/09 -IVF#1=BFN w/RE #2
- 6/22/09-IVF#2 =BFP!
- 1/15/10-Hazel and Elijah were born
Blog Archive
IF Success Stories
- Busted Babymaker
- Caroline-From Infertility to Baby
- Conceive This!
- Infertility Journey to Motherhood
- IVF on the Down Low
- Little Bluebirds Fly
- Make it Grand
- My Infertile World
- No swimmers in the tubes, no bun in the oven
- Not How I Planned
- Pieces of My Life
- Someday, Someway!
- Swimming Against the Tide
- There's a baby at the end of this, right?
Multiples
Infertility Blogs
Loss
Non-IF blogs I like
Money Spent on IF
- 2008-
- 7/23/08 -$323 RE office visit
- 7/23/08 -$727 cervical cultures
- 8/11/08 -$948 day 3 bloodwork
- 8/11/08 -$536 day 3 ultrasound
- 8/20/08 -$285 for IUI #1
- 9/5/08 -$194 Semen analysis and cryopreservation
- 9/08-9/09 -$150 semen storage fee
- 9/11/08 -$194 semen analysis
- 10/6/08 -pending $3,500 for HSG
- 10/11/08 -$285 for IUI #2
- 12/1/08 -$285 for IUI #3
- 12/27/08 -$285 for IUI #4
- 2009-
- 1/24/09-$248 RE office visit
- 1/28/09 -$412 semen analysis and bloodwork
- 1/30/09 -$542 mock-ET and bloodwork
- 2/6/09 -$3,966 for IVF & ER anesthesia
- 2/10/09 -$1,819.05 for IVF Meds
- 3/25/09 -$1,290 freezing embryos
- 4/2/09 -$293 beta testing
- 6/1/09 -$3,996 for IVF #2
Acronyms
- AF = Aunt Flow (menstruation)
- Beta =Beta blood test, tests for pregnancy hormone
- BFN = Big Fat Negative (on HPT)
- BFP = Big Fat Positive (i.e. PREGNANT!)
- DH = Dear Husband. Even when he's not being particularly dear
- ER = Egg retrieval
- ET = Embryo transfer
- FET=Frozen Embryo Cycle
- HPT = Home Pregnancy Test
- ICSI = Intro Cytoplasmic Sperm Injection
- IF = Infertility
- IL = In-laws
- IUI = Intrauterine Insemination
- IVF = In Vitro Fertilization
- LO = Little Ones (babies)
- MFI = Male Factor Infertility
- MoM = Mother of Multiples
- O = Ovulate
- OPK = Ovulation Predictor Kit (tells when you O)
- Pg = pregnant, pregnancy
- PIO = Progesterone in Oil shots
- POAS = Pee on a Stick (take HPT)
- RE = Reproductive Endocrinologist
- SA = Semen Analysis
- SIL = Sister-in-Law
- Stims = Stimulation hormone shots
- TI = Timed Intercourse
- TTC = Trying to Conceive
- TTTC = Trouble Trying to Conceive
- WTF=What the fuck? -why didn't this work
8 comments:
It sure is - that is nice that you will be able to support each other.
I think it's sad, but good. When I joined a real life support group I found it very helpful because I felt so alone.
That's nice that you guys could open up to each other and know there's someone IRL who understands. I find it's a lot harder to talk about my IF in person to anyone because then I have to see the sadness and pity in their eyes and that just makes it worse. I hope you both get those BFPs soon!
It is nice to met people IRL who have the same issues as you, I wish i knew someone IRL with IF that i can relate to but then again I do not want to know anyone with IF b/c it is so hard. I would love 13 inches of snow, I wish I did not have to go to work.
((Hugs))
Hope you have a merry Christmas and blessed new year!
ICLW
i totally agree...it's nice to be able to connect with someone in person, too.
there's nothing like a hug IRL! ;)
stay warm.
I don't have any friends IRL who went through IF or miscarriages like we did. I am sure it will be nice for you to get together and talk, and have someone who gets what you are going through. ((HUGS))
I keep looking for an IRL IF friend, but have yet to find one.
There are a couple of friends I went to college with who have had a difficult time, but I don't really want to open up to them because then I would "out" myself. And I really don't want everyone talking about me when I'm not around.
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