Priorities

Having a child is at the top of my priority list. This is not something I am willing to negotiate and no one, no matter how much they try, can change this.

I realize that a career is important and so is graduate school. But at what cost? The feminist in me wants to scream "you can do it all!" but the realist, the one dealing with incapacitating emotions of late, is screaming "no, you can't, especially not without having a major meltdown."

So my decision has been to quit graduate school. This is not a decision that has gone over very well. Many people are urging me to "finish school before you have kids, you won't have the energy later on." But what they don't realize is that I never intended to finish school before I had kids, I was trying months before I began graduate school. My plan was that grad school would be a well needed distraction during our months of trying to conceive....but we all know how that has turned out.

It's not like I am walking away with nothing, I finished the first year and will be earning a Graduate Certificate in International Education by the end of the summer. And honestly, I am damn proud of myself for sticking with it this long, so there :(~