So quick!

I just called to schedule a mock ET (this Friday), an injections lesson (next Tuesday), and a financial consult (over the phone when we get a chance). We will also need to go to the bank and beg for a loan....well, since it will not be nearly as much as I thought originally, I think it shouldn't be a problem:) OMFG, I cannot believe how quickly this is going.

I had a bit of a breakdown this weekend thinking about the what-if's. What if it doesn't work? We couldn't afford to do it again and we will have exhausted all means of having a child that is biologically both of ours. The thought really made it seem real. During the past two years we knew there would always be the next steps....and the final one would be IVF w/ICSI. And here we are, on the final step.

Then, of course I started to think about what if it does work. I have been VERY optimistic over the past few weeks....maybe even too much. When the RE told us our chances were even higher than we thought (about 65%) I got really hopeful. We even started talking about what we would do if we had twins....I know, the idea is way to premature. I even looked up the cost of daycare, something I had never really done (holy cow it is expensive!), and we talked about down grading our house so I could stay at home.

Too many conversations about what-if's. I need to stay in the here and now so I don't get overwhelmed.