Hopeful Day

On hopeful days I do things I would NEVER do otherwise, today it was looking at nursery bedding online. Such online browsing starts out all fun and games...but ends up in bitterness. I hate being bitter.

Why can't I have a nursery to buy this adorable bedding for? And when we do finally have a baby there is no way we would be able to afford it anyway after all of our out of pocket costs related to IF. IF sucks, a lot.

Update on the b-day party, no one asked about our baby status, but, one party guest keep telling me she really thought that one of my SILs was expecting, something about a 'glow'. If this is true, we have not yet been informed, which would not surprise me at all.

On a final note, I have held TWO babies this week, a newborn and a 10 mo old. And I did not cry either time (well....once I got home I did, but I am proud I kept it in that long).